My first actual dates

My oh my, time has just flown right by me and I've completely neglected to keep this blog up to date. I think I should mention the first actual dates I had after the divorce. Plenty of stuff been going on and lots of action but I still have not found a man to satisfy my needs. And I'm not refering to sexual needs, I can get those needs met anytime I feel like, I'm speaking about my emotional needs, my need to share myself with somebody that will share himself with me.

The first one was a hunky, sexy body builder dude. He was so into me, found me on lots of different dating websites and we chatted on msn for a long time before I finally decided to meet him. We got along, although I felt a bit timid with him. Nothing wrong with him, he's a really nice man, I just felt uneasy and not sure how I was supposed to be around another man. I guess I had been married for to long. And I guess he picked up on my insecurities because when I finally started showing interest in him he backed away and slowly faded out of the picture.

Next guy was an amazing talker, very smooth and just knew how to say all the right things. Kinda cute also, very funny but the more I got to know him to more I lost appetite for him. First of all his body was just to limp, no hard muscles anywhere, all just loose and floppy. I don't need a better reason, sorry dude. I'm shallow. So there's no second of all. Even inspite of the fact, that of all the guys I've met in this single life of mine, he is the absolute best kisser ever. But even that wasn't enaugh to spark my interest.

Third guy was at least 10 years older, very fit and handsome for an "older" man but not hunky enaugh for me to be sexually attracted to him. Lots of great traits though, he had plenty of money, plenty of time and all he wanted to do was to spend lots of his time with me and lots of his money on me. However, I did get the feeling that he's the kind of man that will shower me with material things and all kinds of favors and then make me feel like I owe him something in return.

Needless to say, all these men are out of the picture, although the two latter have made a couple of attempts to rekindle things but I'm not interested. Geez, I´m so cold :-S